Blog Title: When Feelings Don’t Match Faith (And What to Do About It)
There are days I wake up and wonder if I’m doing any of this right.
Running a business that hasn’t yet taken off. Trying to find work that fits my life as a single mom. Battling health issues that feel like they multiply by the day.
And in the middle of it all, I still believe God is good.
That tension—between what I feel and what I know to be true—is where I live lately.
The Struggle Behind the Scenes
I really believed that if I worked hard and stayed consistent, Influence View would have taken off by now. I poured in time, prayer, strategy, and creativity. I did the work. And when I didn’t see the fruit of that labor, it made me question: Am I being faithful to a dream God gave me? Or am I holding onto something He wants me to release?
That question loops in my head a lot.
It’s not just the business. It's the job search, the financial weight, and the quiet but constant pressure of managing a home, raising a son, and helping care for my mom—while my own body often feels like it’s working against me.
And yet, through all of this, I find myself the spiritually healthiest I’ve ever been. I read the Word. I talk to God. I sit in church not just to attend, but to be with Him. That part is real. That part is solid.
When Faith and Feelings Don’t Align
Here’s the thing: faith isn’t a feeling. But that doesn’t mean feelings don’t matter.
Feelings can be loud, disorienting, exhausting. But they’re not always true. Faith whispers something deeper: God is still here. He is still working. He has not failed you.
What I’m learning to do in this season is:
1. Name what I feel, but don’t make it my identity.
I can feel overwhelmed without becoming someone who is overtaken. I can feel uncertain and still move forward.
2. Speak truth over my situation.
Scripture isn’t just comforting; it’s correcting. It realigns me with what’s more true.
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“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.” (Exodus 14:14)
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“Even to your old age and gray hairs I am he, I am he who will sustain you.” (Isaiah 46:4)
3. Remember that strength looks different in every season.
Right now, strength looks like showing up tired. It looks like posting one more time. Like making dinner even when my body aches. Like applying to jobs that may not answer back, but still trying.
Living in the Tension
It is hard to be in the space where so many things feel broken or unfinished, but also to be aware of how beautiful life is at the same time.
That tension—between weariness and gratitude, between longing and trust—isn’t something to escape. It’s something to carry with God.
I don’t have all the answers. But I do have peace that this is a season of change. That I’m being shaped by what I’m enduring. And that even here, God is still deeply involved in my story.
So if you’re in that same place—feeling like things aren’t matching up but still choosing to trust anyway—you’re not alone.
Keep going. God is with you, even in the tension.